Godspeed Space Shuttle

• July 7, 2011

Some posts are well thought, crafted works I invest all kinds of time into getting right. This is likely going to be more of a spew. Atlantis is scheduled to launch tomorrow for STS-135, the final Space Shuttle launch ever. I was one when Apollo 11 landed on the moon. Regardless of my age, it still made an incredible impression on my life. Dad loves space, and he sure passed that love on to me forever since. Read More

Thought Provoking Days

• July 3, 2011

I like thought provoking days the best. I’m happiest when my mind is churning over new ideas, new notions, new ways of dreaming and growing and developing. I’m happiest when I’m trying to align my values with my perspectives and my goals. Some days it works, some days it doesn’t, but the attempt tends to be what matters most. The sort of day where I’ll take a while just to sort everything through in my own mind. Read More

Bicycle vs. Car - an Argument With Myself

• June 30, 2011

I’ve been becoming more vocal lately about pretty much everything. I’ll go right back to what I told you last year - I’m a smart guy, but I’m wrong about half the time. We count on it - that’s the basic fundamental principle of democracy: The majority of us will probably have the right answer most of the time. It’s not foolproof, but it’s as good of a starting point as we’ve found. Read More

Two months to go.

• June 28, 2011

Two months from today I start digging out. The biggest challenge is to remember that I’m digging out right now. Live in the present, aim to the future. I didn’t do so hot in getting as much accomplished today as I had last week. It’s tough to suck it in and accept that it’s okay to have off time. Good stuff is happening, all the really horrible crap is behind me. Read More

Balance in time for the weekend

• June 26, 2011

I strive hard for balance in all things. It matters a lot to me in general, it matters more when I realize I’m going manic depressive. I work pretty hard to keep an even keel when I notice things going out of whack. The week started wonderfully. A continuation of the last few weeks where everything I touched turned golden. Then Thursday happened. Then Friday followed Thursday and was a complete kick in the teeth. Read More

How in the hell do I define this?

• June 22, 2011

They’re out there. You’re out there. You’ve surrounded me. Even those of you who don’t know you’re doing it, you’re there. I explained a bit about Group before. The real accomplishment was sharing the tiny gems of stories, getting the little tidbits of wisdom out. The tiny lessons that give you coping skills and the power to change bad choices for good ones. Tonight the futility I’ve been feeling was understood, explained, and banished through the explanation of where I’m going, of who I’m becoming. Read More

A balance in all things

• June 21, 2011

My ghod, I sound like a whingey, morose bastard these days. Life is fantastic. I have my plan laid out for the summer, for the fall, for the winter. My path is clear, my days are busy, I’m seeing progress on almost everything that’s been burning my ass that I haven’t seemed to be able to get on top of lately. I’ve alluded to all this lovely positive change happening around me and I’ve been talking tl;dr, dark and gloomy. Read More

Safety

• June 19, 2011

In my darkest days, it all came down to one word: Safety. How badly I wish I could remember it all. I don’t. I remember generalities, I remember very specific anecdotes, mostly I remember the snippets of conversation where men in a safe environment told a highly personalized version of the exact same story. It always began with safety. Safety leads to conversation, conversation leads to honesty, honesty leads to trust, trust leads to love. Read More

And the blog ended, not with a bang but a wimper.

• June 18, 2011

Except it didn’t really end. And if you listen really hard, you may hear that wimper is really more of a high pitched whine. In fact, you’re probably asking yourself “Just why did he choose to upgrade today of all days?” The answer is simple. Clearly I don’t have enough on my plate right now so I need a couple side projects to keep me occupied. All the old stuff is still here, somewhere. Read More

You can't love me. You have to love yourself.

• June 15, 2011

It was a dream. A very disconcerting dream. But ultimately just a dream. The damnedest part is that it’s proven to be very real, very tangible and very much something I have taken into myself. I have terrible, horrible news that is going to strike fear into the hearts of so many friends and family around me. One of those shell blasts that’s about to go off just over your head. Read More